A sneak peek from a book I'll be reviewing this week, Loving Eleanor, by Susan Witting Albert. I believe this is called "stubborn."
"I knew, but I couldn’t. When I felt something wasn’t true, I couldn’t say it. When I felt it wasn’t right, I couldn’t do it. Perhaps I was afflicted with the moral arrogance of the young, or perhaps I knew as a child what I know as an adult: that to give in to circumstance is to fail to live fully."